The Perfomer

That word was never a word that I would use to describe how I feel..I never thought to use that word and I purposely never did. I didn’t want to think that my emotions were that intense, that my thoughts were that heavy. But since you brought that word up, and I’ve had time to think about it, my brain has gone crazy trying to make sense of it…And I’m afraid to say that I think that’s because it’s true..You’ll never know that..And if you ever come back and read this you probably won’t care to remember what word I’m even talking about..But I’m sorry that you were able to associate that word with me. If I knew things were going to turn out the way they did, I would’ve reacted differently. We wouldn’t be in the place we are now..I just want to throw that word away, it’s so stupid…You shouldn’t have had to use it, not in the sentence you used it in..

..that word..

If I could’ve caught it…I swear I would’ve fixed everything..