March 2012
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Caught in between.
I’m currently caught in between being grateful for everything that I’ve been able to get this past year and being pissed off at everything that I’ve given up or had taken away from me this past year. Is my anger really justified? Or should I be understanding and not complain? Yeah, I’m stuck in the middle. Not sure whether I’m right or wrong. Or if there’s even...
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I am so much more tired than usual.
The past couple nights I’ve been so drained. I’m hoping it’s not anything deeper than I need to sleep earlier. I’m not trying to have underlying issues to deal with.
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February 2012
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He’s been thinking about not going to prom! What if that means he wouldn’t say yes to me if I asked?! Dangit!! My dream of cute football player with the gorgeous hair asking me to prom is slowly slipping through my fingers!
…I guess I’ll go with my girls and be happy…
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"Are you a virgin?"
It comes up all the time in conversations as boys and girls get to know each other. But it shouldn’t have to. There was a time when it didn’t (I’m talking 50s, 60s, 70s). Mostly because everyone really was a virgin. Parents weren’t even shown sleeping in the same bed on TV. And if you weren’t a virgin you sure as heck didn’t tell anyone. You were automatically...
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Underwhelmed
There is the underwhelming sense of loneliness steadily growing inside of me. And I say underwhelming because it’s not overwhelming. It’s like a tiny monster that lives in the pit of my heart. It doesn’t come out all the way, just high enough to peak its little head out and scare the crap out of me. And it’s only sometimes, when I’m alone and I can’t avoid...
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Why must you change, Tumblr?
There’s no reason to be insecure. I like you just the way you are. Your layout. Your icons. Your font. I fell in love with you for a reason. You’re perfect. No more changes okay?
Koa Orquia: kids who grow up with parents that are... →
koaorquia:
I feel bad for them. I know from first hand experience just how much a divorce early on in a child’s life can affect them. My parents split when I was 14. Dale was 2. By the age of 14, I already knew what a family felt like. I saw and felt what it was like to have my family whole; where your…
leeuuuhh asked: You didn't tell me you had a tumblr Emerald-daddy. I feel that much more connected to you:)
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jedidj:
My headphones won’t lie.
If I’m...
*FANGIRLSCREAM*
AAAHHH My smile is so big, you don’t even know!
*le sigh*
Alright. I’m done. I just had to get that out…Nevermind, not yet.
AAAAAAAAAHHHHHH
Mmkay. Now I’m done.
“I tip-toe around my feelings. I’m afraid to bump into them and have to...”
– unknown
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This house would be so loud if I didn’t have my music.
“A place where the waves are crashing on the shore, the sun is setting on the horizon, and I can relax, refocus, and just…be.”
My friend’s FB status. She hit it right on the head. It’s one of the reasons I want to go to school in SoCal. So that on those days, or even nights, when everything gets overwhelming I can slip away to a beach somewhere and just breathe.
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“Sometimes you climb out of bed in the morning and you think, I’m not going to...”
– Charles Bukowski (via runawaytrain)
Euphoria: I want an innocent relationship →
I want kisses and cuddling and innocent fun. I’m tired of all relationships being about sex nowadays. No wonder no one can stay together. What happened to cute dates and monthaversaries? I want the type of relationship that is full of excitement and doing stuff like exploring or just going out…
It’d be nice to have this. It’d be so much less complicated that way.
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Do I see a pattern?
I’m finding that there are trends in the reasons that I crush on guys..Like the other day I realized that I like athletes. All the guys I have actually been interested in have been in football, baseball, basketball, or track. Except two of them. They were in drumline, but the way our drumline practices they might as well be considered athletes. And today I noticed that I really do have a...
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I'm tired of not being perfect.
Everything used to come easy. Now I struggle every time I try. And it makes me look stupid..I know what people expect of me. So why I can’t I just be it all?
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One of those love things..
I love when a guy remembers what I tell him. It doesn’t have to be anything special that he remembers (though, those things are sweet). What I really like is the little stuff. Like remembering my schedule for the weekend. Or remembering a habit I told him about. It’s the little stuff that I’ll say nonchalantly in a conversation that I love to be remembered. It lets me know that...
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Password
I can understand giving your significant other your password. It’s a trust thing. And they can leave cutesy things on your dash/news feed/whatever you’re on every once in a while. Adorable, of course. But I will never understand why the other always feels the need to post things on their FB. If you want to use Facebook so bad, why not use your own? There’s no point in confusing...
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Let's make things clear.
I am crushing hard no doubt. That happens. But as much as I am an optimist, I’m a realist all the same. The way I see things is “Don’t expect the worst. But don’t expect the best either.” So I’m chillin’ right now. Seeing how much happiness I can get out of this little friendship thing. I’m not trying to be serious right now. I don’t want to be...
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*le sigh* :)
Done with most of my homework. I should do the rest, but I think I can get away with doing it during school tomorrow. Yup, I am procrastinating. But it’s all good. I’m lightweight too happy to worry too much. I know me; I’ll get it done…eventually ahaha
Good Night guys :) Wishing you, and myself, sweet dreams..
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“So I’ll call your phone and hang up before it actually rings. I’ll write you...”
– Rudy Francisco
Ohmyg.
I am definitely procrastinating hard right now. Listened to music. I went and took a nap. Now I’m back listening to music. But I added Bejeweled to the procrastination :) This is bad, so so bad.
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When I listen to music
Sometimes I don’t feel like dancing. I don’t feel like hearing a whole bunch of beats. I don’t feel like trying to decipher a rap verse. Sometimes I just want to sing. As loud as I can. With everything in me. I think that’s what a lot of the mainstream music is lacking. Just give me a strong song, melodically and lyrically, and an acoustic guitar. And allow me to sing to...
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*fangirling*
This is looking way too far into this whole friend thing..but wouldn’t it be awesome if he asked me prom?! I think it would be :)
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Your syntax and grammar is often wrong, but I let it slide because I like how your face looks. It’s who you are. Who am I to tell you to fix it?
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This dude is so down to earth. We’re literally talking about nothing. But it’s the way he says stuff. Never rude, never cocky. He’s just chill. Haven’t met someone like this in a while.
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“Chasing the light I’ve found, no hesitation, taking my time for now....”
– Collin McLoughlin Chasing Dreams
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Woke up at 6:00am
6:53am now and I’m just chilling in bed. I suppose it’s time for me to stop procrastinating. Good Morning Love.
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New Songs.
Collin McLoughlin - Chasing Dreams Jeff Bernat - Just Vibe
Thanks to @ikennguyenyourheart for having a dope acoustic play list. Very soothing after a long day.
I'm having such a hard time getting my priorities...
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Random Pet Peeve
not really a pet peeve because it’s only about one song but whatever
“You put it down like New York City, I never sleep. Wild like Los Angeles, my fantasy. Hotter than Miami, I feel the heat. Miss International Love.”
Why is this song called “International Love”? I’m pretty sure that New York City, Los Angeles, and Miami are all in America. How about...
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He reblogged it?!
Oh goodness. Imma need his friends to not know me if they have tumblr’s. How awkward would that be to have someone else reblogged that post and they knew that I was the one who wrote it? aha It’s not that embarrassing of post, but still. I met a cute guy. I wrote about it. Now he knows I wrote it. It’s a lightweight embarrassing situation aha He said he doesn’t really look...
Dear Facebook
I don’t want to be a stalker. Why do you force me to be? Seriously. Seeing what people ‘like’? Seeing what they comment and the picture/status they comment on? I’d beg to differ if you don’t think that’s at least a little creepy.
Sincerly, Girl who lightweight misses Myspace
Oh no!
What have I done?! Why can’t I be a normal teenager with a normal blog? Instead of my girly/depressing self on here? ahahaha I gotta start blogging as if I were talking to people in person. It’d be all smiles and unicorns aha
AAAAHHH!!!
*fangirlshriek*
Remember Christian Miller?! Well he talked to me again today! And I’m going to the basketball game tonight where he will be! I am definitely okay with this. Don’t think I’ll be getting a boyfriend or anything. But a cute boy is having a conversation with me. What girl wouldn’t be excited?! ahaha
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Going to bed without having done any homework..
This is the slump that I don’t want to be in. I’ve been doing an okay job of pulling myself out and being the big girl that I’m supposed to be. But right now, I am no where near in the mood to be the big girl. For once I’d like to not have to talk. I’d like to not have to pull.. I just want someone to pull for me....
too much!
lxisaurus:
being a senior teenager is hard. I have so much i need to be thinking about all at one time and i don’t know where to start with any of them. With all of this college stuff, prom, drumline, driving, and school stuff i think im going to go insane. im so overwhelmed D:
That word..
That word was never a word that I would use to describe how I feel..I never thought to use that word and I purposely never did. I didn’t want to think that my emotions were that intense, that my thoughts were that heavy. But since you brought that word up, and I’ve had time to think about it, my brain has gone crazy trying to make sense of it…And I’m afraid to say that I...
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In the darkness..
You seem to shine through. Though I wake up feeling hopeless, I find my hope when I find you. Eventually I want to be able to circulate my own light but until then I will look to you. You don’t have to do much. You smile. You laugh. You hold me. You kiss me. You speak. You stay silent. You are you. I cannot help but be happier. It’s the way you know when I need you and how I need you....
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Post-Graduation Dance Goals
Get more flexible
Become a better modern/contemporary dancer
Get back into hip hop
Learn how to salsa or tango (waltz would be cool too though)
People say I’m a good dancer. I’d say I’m a good performer (not to say I’m sucky, my performance face masks my mistakes very well). I definitely want to expand my dancing abilities. Don’t know if I’ll use it for...
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Are you mad?!
When people flip off the camera. I don’t understand why people throw it up like it’s the peace sign.
When will it ever not be my fault.
mizzyeffbaybee:
seriously.